End it to Begin....

And it all begins when we want it but never ends in the way we want it to. Suddenly it hits us hard and we still struggle to take that slap of time. What holds within the boundaries of our understanding can never be put with a full stop. We all have this urge to push the line as far as we can and not realizing by pushing it too far we tend to lose the very boundary that defines us. Why is it so hard to realize our own fears and try to build the gates accordingly? We live in a world of people with hearts only meant to pump the blood through the system. We just can’t walk a simple straight road without asking a thousand questions to ourselves, why is it so hard to leap the gates of our own insecurities and cross the road of realism? The complexities of our behavior are driven by the basic emotions we exhibit in a situation at any given point of time. We expect much more than what we are entitled to. Expectations are like the castles build in the air whose foundations are yet to be laid down. The very foundations are driven by the complex mindsets working on them. Laying down the guidelines and rules for them is as hard as breaking the thin ice of false pride. Expectation is just another basic emotion which adds the icing in the complexity of the behavior. Another big trait we have been gifted is the big ego which plays the major role in our behavior. Ego is a stack of assumptions we lay down for ourselves without realizing the meaning of them in our life. We tend to prioritize these assumptions according to our own convenience and need. These are so complexly related to each other that if any one of them is tried to put under light, the very basic model collapses. And over the time we keep stacking it until it builds like a wall such big that a mere try of mending it breaks the mind. And the ego which poses and causes most of the threat is the social ego. The assumptions we lay down about people around us. What makes them is another set of assumptions of basic walls of understanding and the exaggerated walls of expectations. It’s like swimming against the high tide and realizing when the damage is done. It’s these assumptions when they reach a point where there is no way of return they cause another defect which most people go through, this is better known as Identity crisis. It’s then we tend to do things which trigger the unexpected opinions which in turn start reflecting in our behavior. This helps the little bugs of irritation creep in and start contaminating us from within. This reflects our erratic behavior and suddenly we are off the charts of being our true self. The day we learn to manage our basic set of emotions, start commanding them, we can be a better person and make people around us comfortable too.